Jaringan Komputer adalah sebuah kumpulan komputer, printer dan peralatan lainnya yang terhubung dalam satu kesatuan.
informasi dan data bergerak melalui kabel-kabel atau tanpa kabel sehingga memungkinkan pengguna jaringan komputer dapat saling tukar informasi.
konsep jaringan komputer lahir pada tahun 1940-an di Amerika dari sebuah proyek pengembangan komputer MODEL I di laboratorium Bell dan group riset Harvard University yang dipimpin oleh profesor H.Aiken. pada mulanya proyek tersebut hanyalah ingin memanfaatkan sebuah perangkat komputer yang harus dipakai bersama untuk mengerjakan beberapa proses tanpa banyak membuang waktu kosong dibuatlah proses beruntun (Batch Processing), sehingga beberapa program bisa dijalankan dalam sebuah komputer dengan kaidah antrian.
ditahun 1950-an ketika jenis komputer mulai membesar sampai terciptanya super komputer, maka sebuah komputer mesti melayani beberapa terminal, untuk itu ditemukan konsep distribusi proses berdasarkan waktu yang dikenal dengan nama TSS (time Sharing System), maka untuk pertama kali jaringan (network) komputer diaplikasikan. Pada sistem TSS mulai nampak perpaduan teknologi komputer dan teknologi telekomunikasi yang pada awalnya berkembang sendiri-sendiri.
Sejarah jaringan Komputer Global/ Dunia dimulai pada tahun 1969 ketika Departemen pertahanan Amerika U.S. Defense Advanced Research Project Agency(DARPA) memutuskan untuk mengadakan riset tenang bagaimana caranya menghubungkan sejumlah komputer sehingga membentuk jaringan organik. program riset ini dikenal dengan ARPANET.
Pada Tahun1970, Sudah lebih dari 10 komputer yang berhasil dihubungkan satu sama lain sehingga mereka bisa saling berkomunikasi dan membentuk sebuah jaringan.
Pada Tahun 1972, Roy Tomlinson berhasil menyempurnakan program e-mail yang ia ciptakan setahun yang lalu untuk ARPANET. Program e-mail ini begitu mudah sehingga langsung menjadi populer. Pada tahun yang sama icon @ juga dikenalkan sebagai lambang penting yang menunjukan "at" atau "pada".
Tahun 1973, jarkom ARPANET mulai dikembangkan meluas ke luar AMerika Serikat. Komputer University College di London merupakan komputer pertama yang ada di luar Amerika yang menjadi anggota jaringan Arpanet.
Tahun yang sama, 2 orang ahli komputer yaitu, Vinton Cerf dan Bob Kahn mempersentasikan sebuah gagasan yang lebih besar, yang menjadi cikal bakal pemikiran Internasional Network. Ideini dipersentasikan untuk pertama kalinya di Universitas Sussex.
Tanggal 26 Maret 1976, ketika Ratu Inggris berhasil mengirim e-mail dari Royal Signals and Radar Establishment di Malvern, Setahun kemudian, sudah lebih dari 100 Komputer yang bergabung di ARPANET membentuk sebuah jaringan atau Network.
Tahun 1979, Tom Truscott, Jim Ellis dan Steve Bellovin, menciptakan newgroup pertama yang diberi nama USENET.
Tahun 1981 France Telecom menciptakan gebrakan dengan meluncurkan telpon televisi pertama dimana orang bisa saling menelepon sambil berhubungan dengan video link, karena komputer yang membentuk jaringan semakin hari semakin banyak, maka dibutuhkan sebuah protocol resmi yang diakui oleh semua jaringan.
Tahun 1982 dibentuk Transmission Control Protocol atau TCP dan IP yang kini kita kenal semua. Sementara itu di Eropa muncul Jaringan Komputer tandingan yang dikenal dengan Eunet, yang menyediakan jasa jaringan komputer ke negara-negara Belanda, Inggris, Denmark dan Swedia.
Tahun 1984 diperkenalkan sistem nama domain yang kini kita kenal dengan DNS. Komputer tersambung dengan jaringan yang ada sudah melebihi 1000 komputer lebih.
Tahun 1987, jumlah komputer yang tersambung ke jaringan menjadi 10.000 lebih
Tahun 1988, Jarko Oikarinen dari Finland menemukan dan sekaligus memperkenalkan IRC. setahun kemudian komputer yang saling berhubungan menjadi 100.000 komputer kini membentuk jaringan.
Tahun 1990 adalah tahun yang paling bersejarah, ketika Tim Berners Lee menemukan program Editor dan Browser yang bisa menjelajah antara satu komputer ke komputer lainnya yang membentuk jaringan. Program inilah yang disebut www atau World Wide Web
Tahun 1992, Komputer yang saling tersambung membentuk jaringan sudah melampaui sejuta komputer dan tahun yang sama muncul istilah surfing (menjelajah)
Tahun 1994, situs-situs dunia maya telah tumbuh menjadi 3000 alamat halaman. dan untuk pertama kalinya virtual-shopping atau e-retai muncul disitus. Dunia langsung berubah ditahun yang sama YAHOO didirikan.
OSI
OSI(Model Open System Interconection) diciptakan oleh Internasional Organization for Standardization (ISO) yang menyediaka kerangka logika terstruktur bagaimana proses komunikasi data berinteraksi melalui jaringan.
terdapat 7 layer pada model OSI. Tujuannya adalah untuk membantu desiner jaringan memahami fungsi dari setiap layer yang berhubungan dengan aliran komunikasi data.
7 Layer OSI adalah
7. Aplication : menyediakan jasa untuk aplikasi pengguna. layer ini bertanggung jawa atas pertukaran informasi antara program komputer seperti program e-mail dan service lainnya yang jalan di jaringan, seperti server printer atau aplikasi komputer lainnya
6. Presentation : bertanggung jawab bagaimana data dikonversikan dan diformat untuk tramsfer data. layer ini membentuk kode konversi, tranlasi data, enkripsi dan konversi
5. Session : menentukan bagaimana 2 terminal menjaga, memelihara dan mengatur koneksi-koneksi, bagaimana mereka saling berhubungan. koneksi dilayer ini disebut session.
4. Transport : bertanggung jawab membagi data menjadi segmen, menjaga koneksi logika "end-to-end" dan menyediakan penanganan error(error handling)
3. Network : bertanggung jawab menentukan alamat jaringan, menetukan rute yang harus diambil selama perjalanan dan menjaga antrian trafik di jaringan. data pada layer ini berbentuk paket.
2. DataLink : menyediakan link untuk data, memaketkannya menjadi frame yang berhubungan dengan hardware kemudian diangkut melalui media, komunikasinya dengan kartu jaringan, mengatur komunikasi layer physical.
1. Physical : Bertanggung jawab atas proses data menjadi bit dan mentranfernya melalui media seperti kabel dan menjaga koneksi fisik atar sistem.
Selasa, 06 Oktober 2009
Senin, 08 Desember 2008
Happiness of Naia (10)
Tok tok tok
I open the door
“Sam? Come in, please sit down, what happen?” asked me
“Nay, I get a information about Mr. Ramon Bastian A.” answered Sam
“Oh yeah?? What?” asked me.
“I know where he live know..” said Sam
“Ok, let’s go to there…”
“Come on”
On the way to Mr. Ramon’s house, I am afraid, I am nervous, I don’t know what I feel now,, but I want to know, Who is the killer Raia..
When we are arrive, I look his house,, big house, yeah he is a rich man.
“Nay, come on”
“Ok”
Tok tok tok Sam knock the door
(Deg deg deg) I am so nervous…
Tok tok tok Sam knock the door again.
And someone open the door
“Yaa,,,” said someone
Oh my god I don’t believe with what I look.. Oh my God… I really don’t believe it!! No!!!
“Nay!!!!” said someone
“DEAN!!!!!!!! Oh my God!!” said me
“Nay, are you Okay?” said Sam
“Sam, may be we are wrong..” asked me to Sam
“No Nay, this is Melati street number 91, isn’t you?” asked Sam to Dean
“Yes, Nay, what are you doing here?” Asked dean to me
“Dean answer one my question..” asked me
“Okay, what?” said Dean
“You know Mr. Ramon Bastian A.?” Asked me
“Yes, he is my Father…” answered him
“Oh My God…” said me limp
“Ohh he is the killer’s son?” said Sam
Bukk!!
Sam hit Dean
“No Sam, PLEASE!!” scream me
“WHAT HAPPEN??” said Dean
“Your father…. Your father has been kill Raia, my Brother, you know!!” said Dean with angry
“WHAT!!!!!!!!!” scream Dean
Silent… a world feel stop.. all people just silent…
Dean’s nose blood
“Really Nay?” asked Dean
I just cry……
“Dean, I don’t believe it,, hiks…hiks…” and I go home…
***
“Nay,, are you Okay?” asked Sam when we are arrive in my home.
“Yes, I’m fine, don’t worry.” Said me
“Nay,, I have one question, who is that Nay? You know him?”
“Yes,,,, I know him, he is my client, my business relationship, but…”
“What happen Nay?”
“You know Sam, He is my best friend, and we are so close,, I think I can find someone else to fill up my live after Raia death…but…… hiks…”
“Oh my God.. Nay,, I don’t know, what I must to do.. But I really hate him,, I hate his Father and his family…” said Sam,,
“……” I just cry….
“Nay, relax.. You must be rest,, okay,, don’t think about it again,,”
“I don’t know.. Sam. I not sure” said me limp.
And Sam go home..
Why God,, Why this happen to me? When I find someone to take care me, to listen me, and this all shattered.. and I fall again…
***
Tok tok tok..
“Yes.. wait..” I open the door..
“Who is…… “
“Nay”
“Dean!! What do you want??”
“I want to tell you about everything, please! Nay, Listen me! And after that, up to you.. What your think about me.. ” said Dean
“Okay.. Come in” said me
And we are sit in the chair in my house..
“Okay, what you tell to me?” asked me,
“Nay, My parent divorce fifteen year ago because my father become black organization member, my mom don’t agree about that because she know, this organization is dirty organization, they are kill, they are smuggle of illegal drugs, and my father become bad person, materialistic person, he can do anything for money, So my mom and I went from Indonesia.. and live in Germany.” Tell Dean
I just silent, “so why you come in Indonesia?” said me in my heart.
He like know about my question he says:
“I come in Indonesia because my father sick and want to meet me. Yaa I have a work in Indonesia, So I come in Indonesia..” said him
“So??? Are you finishing?” asked me
“Nay, please, listen me, I come to your house because…my father is hard sick, he suffer leukemia, and he want to meet you..” said him
“He?? Meet me?? No,, he sick is not my business,, he after take my boyfriend, my happiness, my heart, and my live. You don’t know, do you? He doesn’t know how I suffered, I fall, until you come in my life,, you know,, I hope you will make me forget that incident, but…”
I stop my word,, and continue
“But you make me fall again..” said me with hold my tear
“Nay, I don’t know everything about his deed, because I life in Germany. Please Nay follow me,, and you can see how condition him now, please he want to say sorry..” asked Dean
After we are talking for long time, finally I agree with him,, and we are go to Hospital.. when we are arrive, we go to a room, and when we are enter this room,, I look a man, limp, thin, no energetic, and he look me limp..
“Dad, she is Naia..” said Dean whisper
I near him, and in his bed written “Mr. Ramon Bastian Antony, age: 54.”
“Yeah.. His family’s name same with Dean, Dean Andrew Antony,, why I can’t aware about this” said me my heart
“Naia… I….am……so…ss…..so…rry………” said Dean’s father and he died…
Dean seem sad, he just silent, but his mom cry and I just silent and I look him, I don’t know what I can do now,,
***
1 week later…
“Dean!”
“Nay…”
“What do you want?” asked me
“I… I just want to say good-bye and thank for everything, emm emm Now, I will go home to Germany forever. And may be I don’t come again to Indonesia, and,, and I think, you look me as a lie man, but I don’t lie you about my feel, until now, you are perfect woman for me, I really love you… but I know you don’t give me and my family sorry.. I understand.. So I just want to see you to the end. And I save in my mind, Thanks, Sorry and good bye…Naia” said him.
He is going, I look he hold cry, but I know him feel sad. But I until now,, I don’t give them sorry..
I cry… in toilet in my office for long time.. I think and think about all. What am I willing to lose Dean? But his father……
Tok tok tok
“Nay??”
“hahhh yes Ras, what happen?” scream me in inside toilet,,
“Are you okay?” asked Rasty
I open the door and hug Rasty and I cry… I tell her all of them..
“Nay… I don’t believe Nay, but… I have one question,,, you love him, right?” asked her,
I nod, “But Ras…… his father…”
“Nay, listen! You love Dean, you like Dean, and Dean too. Dean,, is kind person, he like help me about everything, he kind of you, and he different with his father, and Nay, He doesn’t know everything about his father deed, I sure he kind and sweet person. Raia certain follow happy, and agree if condition like this. Believe me…” Said Rasty
“But Ras.. He has been went to Germany.. What time is it?”
“14.10”
“Ras, I will run him.. I hope he still here!”
***
I go to airport, I search Dean and his mother, but I search in inside airport, but not found, and when I ask to information place, they say :
“To Germany? Oh I’m sorry the plane has been take off one hour ago..” said customer service
Hahhhh I limp,,I stupid!! I am not aware about my feeling, hahh… I must run him until I can say, I Love you Dean…”
***
1 month later
I will to go to Germany,, I finishing my work and I take furlough, I must find Dean..
I go to German, and when I arrive, then I straight to Frankfurt am Main city, when I arrive, I look what Dean said to me… the view so amazing, and if night come, I look the Frankfurt am Main city more and more amazing… Dean,, you right. Frankfurt am Main city is so Amazing city..
I open the door
“Sam? Come in, please sit down, what happen?” asked me
“Nay, I get a information about Mr. Ramon Bastian A.” answered Sam
“Oh yeah?? What?” asked me.
“I know where he live know..” said Sam
“Ok, let’s go to there…”
“Come on”
On the way to Mr. Ramon’s house, I am afraid, I am nervous, I don’t know what I feel now,, but I want to know, Who is the killer Raia..
When we are arrive, I look his house,, big house, yeah he is a rich man.
“Nay, come on”
“Ok”
Tok tok tok Sam knock the door
(Deg deg deg) I am so nervous…
Tok tok tok Sam knock the door again.
And someone open the door
“Yaa,,,” said someone
Oh my god I don’t believe with what I look.. Oh my God… I really don’t believe it!! No!!!
“Nay!!!!” said someone
“DEAN!!!!!!!! Oh my God!!” said me
“Nay, are you Okay?” said Sam
“Sam, may be we are wrong..” asked me to Sam
“No Nay, this is Melati street number 91, isn’t you?” asked Sam to Dean
“Yes, Nay, what are you doing here?” Asked dean to me
“Dean answer one my question..” asked me
“Okay, what?” said Dean
“You know Mr. Ramon Bastian A.?” Asked me
“Yes, he is my Father…” answered him
“Oh My God…” said me limp
“Ohh he is the killer’s son?” said Sam
Bukk!!
Sam hit Dean
“No Sam, PLEASE!!” scream me
“WHAT HAPPEN??” said Dean
“Your father…. Your father has been kill Raia, my Brother, you know!!” said Dean with angry
“WHAT!!!!!!!!!” scream Dean
Silent… a world feel stop.. all people just silent…
Dean’s nose blood
“Really Nay?” asked Dean
I just cry……
“Dean, I don’t believe it,, hiks…hiks…” and I go home…
***
“Nay,, are you Okay?” asked Sam when we are arrive in my home.
“Yes, I’m fine, don’t worry.” Said me
“Nay,, I have one question, who is that Nay? You know him?”
“Yes,,,, I know him, he is my client, my business relationship, but…”
“What happen Nay?”
“You know Sam, He is my best friend, and we are so close,, I think I can find someone else to fill up my live after Raia death…but…… hiks…”
“Oh my God.. Nay,, I don’t know, what I must to do.. But I really hate him,, I hate his Father and his family…” said Sam,,
“……” I just cry….
“Nay, relax.. You must be rest,, okay,, don’t think about it again,,”
“I don’t know.. Sam. I not sure” said me limp.
And Sam go home..
Why God,, Why this happen to me? When I find someone to take care me, to listen me, and this all shattered.. and I fall again…
***
Tok tok tok..
“Yes.. wait..” I open the door..
“Who is…… “
“Nay”
“Dean!! What do you want??”
“I want to tell you about everything, please! Nay, Listen me! And after that, up to you.. What your think about me.. ” said Dean
“Okay.. Come in” said me
And we are sit in the chair in my house..
“Okay, what you tell to me?” asked me,
“Nay, My parent divorce fifteen year ago because my father become black organization member, my mom don’t agree about that because she know, this organization is dirty organization, they are kill, they are smuggle of illegal drugs, and my father become bad person, materialistic person, he can do anything for money, So my mom and I went from Indonesia.. and live in Germany.” Tell Dean
I just silent, “so why you come in Indonesia?” said me in my heart.
He like know about my question he says:
“I come in Indonesia because my father sick and want to meet me. Yaa I have a work in Indonesia, So I come in Indonesia..” said him
“So??? Are you finishing?” asked me
“Nay, please, listen me, I come to your house because…my father is hard sick, he suffer leukemia, and he want to meet you..” said him
“He?? Meet me?? No,, he sick is not my business,, he after take my boyfriend, my happiness, my heart, and my live. You don’t know, do you? He doesn’t know how I suffered, I fall, until you come in my life,, you know,, I hope you will make me forget that incident, but…”
I stop my word,, and continue
“But you make me fall again..” said me with hold my tear
“Nay, I don’t know everything about his deed, because I life in Germany. Please Nay follow me,, and you can see how condition him now, please he want to say sorry..” asked Dean
After we are talking for long time, finally I agree with him,, and we are go to Hospital.. when we are arrive, we go to a room, and when we are enter this room,, I look a man, limp, thin, no energetic, and he look me limp..
“Dad, she is Naia..” said Dean whisper
I near him, and in his bed written “Mr. Ramon Bastian Antony, age: 54.”
“Yeah.. His family’s name same with Dean, Dean Andrew Antony,, why I can’t aware about this” said me my heart
“Naia… I….am……so…ss…..so…rry………” said Dean’s father and he died…
Dean seem sad, he just silent, but his mom cry and I just silent and I look him, I don’t know what I can do now,,
***
1 week later…
“Dean!”
“Nay…”
“What do you want?” asked me
“I… I just want to say good-bye and thank for everything, emm emm Now, I will go home to Germany forever. And may be I don’t come again to Indonesia, and,, and I think, you look me as a lie man, but I don’t lie you about my feel, until now, you are perfect woman for me, I really love you… but I know you don’t give me and my family sorry.. I understand.. So I just want to see you to the end. And I save in my mind, Thanks, Sorry and good bye…Naia” said him.
He is going, I look he hold cry, but I know him feel sad. But I until now,, I don’t give them sorry..
I cry… in toilet in my office for long time.. I think and think about all. What am I willing to lose Dean? But his father……
Tok tok tok
“Nay??”
“hahhh yes Ras, what happen?” scream me in inside toilet,,
“Are you okay?” asked Rasty
I open the door and hug Rasty and I cry… I tell her all of them..
“Nay… I don’t believe Nay, but… I have one question,,, you love him, right?” asked her,
I nod, “But Ras…… his father…”
“Nay, listen! You love Dean, you like Dean, and Dean too. Dean,, is kind person, he like help me about everything, he kind of you, and he different with his father, and Nay, He doesn’t know everything about his father deed, I sure he kind and sweet person. Raia certain follow happy, and agree if condition like this. Believe me…” Said Rasty
“But Ras.. He has been went to Germany.. What time is it?”
“14.10”
“Ras, I will run him.. I hope he still here!”
***
I go to airport, I search Dean and his mother, but I search in inside airport, but not found, and when I ask to information place, they say :
“To Germany? Oh I’m sorry the plane has been take off one hour ago..” said customer service
Hahhhh I limp,,I stupid!! I am not aware about my feeling, hahh… I must run him until I can say, I Love you Dean…”
***
1 month later
I will to go to Germany,, I finishing my work and I take furlough, I must find Dean..
I go to German, and when I arrive, then I straight to Frankfurt am Main city, when I arrive, I look what Dean said to me… the view so amazing, and if night come, I look the Frankfurt am Main city more and more amazing… Dean,, you right. Frankfurt am Main city is so Amazing city..
But where I can search you… I really don’t know about this city. But I don’t give up and I start to search Dean, I ask to many people, I come to restaurants, the mall, the hotels, and other place, but I can’t find him… I try to calling him with his phone in Germany, but nothing..
Oh yeah I know one place.. yaa in Constance Lake, in Schwarzwald..
I go to Constance Lake, in Schwarzwald, and when I arrive, Subhanallah! This is beautiful,,
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Oh yeah I know one place.. yaa in Constance Lake, in Schwarzwald..
I go to Constance Lake, in Schwarzwald, and when I arrive, Subhanallah! This is beautiful,,
When I still see a lake…
“Nay…” say someone
“DEAN!!!!!!!!” I hug him..
“I know I can find you in this place..” said me.
“What are you doing Nay?” said him
“Dean.. I search you, I know I stupid! I aware if I not accuse you wrong, I aware dean, I’m sorry,,” said me
“Nay,, what I dreaming?”
“No, I’m sorry, I aware if I need you, I miss you and…… what your question still be valid?” asked me
“Sure, why?” answered Dean
“Because,,, because… I want to answer yes,, ich liebe dich Dean (I Love you Dean)”
“Nay…… I don’t know what I must say to you,,, since now, we are forget about all, and now, our live has begun…”
“So?”
“Ich liebe dich Naia (I Love you Naia)”
I smile and now I feel very happy…
And I am hug Dean, yes it is my live, Dean give me happiness, and we are see the lake together, and we are look sunset and all of them I feel beautiful,, Thanks God,, and this is my happiness.
“Nay…” say someone
“DEAN!!!!!!!!” I hug him..
“I know I can find you in this place..” said me.
“What are you doing Nay?” said him
“Dean.. I search you, I know I stupid! I aware if I not accuse you wrong, I aware dean, I’m sorry,,” said me
“Nay,, what I dreaming?”
“No, I’m sorry, I aware if I need you, I miss you and…… what your question still be valid?” asked me
“Sure, why?” answered Dean
“Because,,, because… I want to answer yes,, ich liebe dich Dean (I Love you Dean)”
“Nay…… I don’t know what I must say to you,,, since now, we are forget about all, and now, our live has begun…”
“So?”
“Ich liebe dich Naia (I Love you Naia)”
I smile and now I feel very happy…
And I am hug Dean, yes it is my live, Dean give me happiness, and we are see the lake together, and we are look sunset and all of them I feel beautiful,, Thanks God,, and this is my happiness.
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Senin, 01 Desember 2008
Happiness Of Naia (9)
Kring… kring my phone ring
“Halo Naia Speaking”
“Hay Nay, how are you?” said someone
“Oh Dean,,, I fine thanks, by the way…what happen?” said me
“No, I just,,,, want to……invite you to lunch again,,” said Dean
“Hihihi, okay, where?”
“Oh,, Alhamdulillah, I afraid you will push away.. hahaha.. Okay I will fetch you okay, 12.00 o’clock” said Dean
“Hihihi Okay, I wait you” said me
Click!
***
“Hay Nay.. Come on!” said Dean
“Okay”
And we are lunch in a café,, Dean order fried rice chicken, and I too.
“Dean, when you will go home? Emm to Germany, will you?” said me
“Yes.. But I don’t know, when I will go home, I must finish my work, and I must take care of my father. He is sick, in Indonesia,” said Dean
“Oh.. I sad to hear that” said me
“Thanks, oh ya.. emm yesterday, where you went?” asked Dean
“I went to police office.” Answered me
“To….?” Asked Dean
“The killer my boyfriend had been gotten caught.” Answered me
“Alhamdulillah… So?”
“Yeah.. That’s it. I don’t know, but I know the leader command him to kill my boyfriend.” Said me
“Oh.. Okay.. I just pray the best for you. Oh look, the our food come..”
“Yeah.. Lets we are eating..” said me
***
Emmm Dean… yeah Dean,, I think He is kind person, we are often send SMS and Call by phone.. We are often lunch together, and we are talking about all, about music, about politic, about Law in Indonesia or Germany, and everything,, more and more long time, He can treat my hurt in my heart,, I think he can make me happy again, after Raia’s death.. but, until now, I can’t forget Raia,,
Kring kring
Rasty Calling
“Halow Nay my darling…. Hahahaha” Rasty said
“aaaa are you fine?” said me
“hahahaha yes I fine Nay,,”
“Ok, what happen?” asked me
“I look, you more and more close with.. Who is that?” asked Rasty
“Dean?” said me
“yuph!”
“emm I don’t know, but until now, we are just friend. Okay,” said me
“Okay okay. But if he say ‘ich liebe dich’ (I Love you), what you will to do?” asked Rasty
“Emmm I don’t know, but until now, I can’t forget about Raia Ras..”
“Ohhh I’m sorry. But your life must go on okay, you don’t sad too long long time. Look your future, you must marry, you must be happy, you must be happy to your family okay” said Rasty
“Ya, but I don’t think to search a someone to change Raia, Ras”
“You don’t search someone to change Raia, Raia don’t you forgotten, Save Raia in your heart forever. He is life in your heart”
“But Ras…….”
“Nay, Raia certain not happy if you like this. Raia certain want to you happy.. okay”
“…….”
“Nay.. Open your eyes, open your heart,, and look a world, and you will get happiness.”
“I’m not sure, but I will try okay” said me limp
“Sip! Okay I back you..” said Rasty
“Thank Ras, you are my best friend..”
Click!
Rasty right!, Live must go on, and Raia certain not happy if I like this. I hope I can make Raia happy. But who is can make me falling in love again… and what he is can be make me comfort?
Tok tok tok
I open the door.
“Hai Nay,,,”
“Dean!!!”
“Are you busy? I disturb you?”
“No no no, come in, please sit down, and wait, I make you a drink, what do you want?” said me
“May I request Mineral water” said Dean
“Sure,, wait okay” said me and I bring the drink for Dean..
“Wie geht's? (How are you?)” asked me
“es geht mir gut, danke (fine, thanks)” answered Dean
“Okay,, what happen?” asked me
“No, I just bored, and I don’t know I want to meet you hihihihi”
I just smile..
“Okay By the way… Woher kommen Sie? (Where are you from?) yaa where you life in Germany?” asked me open talking,
“I live in Frankfurt am Main city in Germany,, you know that? It is great city.”
“Oh yeah?” said me excited
“Yes, it is one city favorite city in Germany..” said him
“You must bring me to this city” said me
“Oh of course, I will bring you to this city, you must see the city if night..” said me
“Wah… I so embittered,, “ said me
“I bring photo this city, it’s so amazing.” Said Dean
“Oh ya.. May I look that’s photo?” said me
“Sure, wait, I must take the photos in my car okay” said him
And he bring the photos
“Wah…….. Dean you must bring me to this place…”
“Of course Nay,,”
“Promise?”
“Yaa. I am promise! By the way, I must go home okay”
“Okay”
“but before that, Nay, May I tell you about some think?”
“Yes Sure, What?”
“I just want to say…………… ich liebe dich Nay (I Love you Nay)”
Oh my god.. What he mean?
“…….”
“Nay…… Nay?? Sorry, I said liked that, but I really Love you, I hope you can open your heart to me… you don’t answer now, but you can answer me if you are sure about your feel,, good night Nay” said Dean
He is going home, and I still stand and do not believe. But now, I become remember Raia…
***
“Halo Naia Speaking”
“Hay Nay, how are you?” said someone
“Oh Dean,,, I fine thanks, by the way…what happen?” said me
“No, I just,,,, want to……invite you to lunch again,,” said Dean
“Hihihi, okay, where?”
“Oh,, Alhamdulillah, I afraid you will push away.. hahaha.. Okay I will fetch you okay, 12.00 o’clock” said Dean
“Hihihi Okay, I wait you” said me
Click!
***
“Hay Nay.. Come on!” said Dean
“Okay”
And we are lunch in a café,, Dean order fried rice chicken, and I too.
“Dean, when you will go home? Emm to Germany, will you?” said me
“Yes.. But I don’t know, when I will go home, I must finish my work, and I must take care of my father. He is sick, in Indonesia,” said Dean
“Oh.. I sad to hear that” said me
“Thanks, oh ya.. emm yesterday, where you went?” asked Dean
“I went to police office.” Answered me
“To….?” Asked Dean
“The killer my boyfriend had been gotten caught.” Answered me
“Alhamdulillah… So?”
“Yeah.. That’s it. I don’t know, but I know the leader command him to kill my boyfriend.” Said me
“Oh.. Okay.. I just pray the best for you. Oh look, the our food come..”
“Yeah.. Lets we are eating..” said me
***
Emmm Dean… yeah Dean,, I think He is kind person, we are often send SMS and Call by phone.. We are often lunch together, and we are talking about all, about music, about politic, about Law in Indonesia or Germany, and everything,, more and more long time, He can treat my hurt in my heart,, I think he can make me happy again, after Raia’s death.. but, until now, I can’t forget Raia,,
Kring kring
Rasty Calling
“Halow Nay my darling…. Hahahaha” Rasty said
“aaaa are you fine?” said me
“hahahaha yes I fine Nay,,”
“Ok, what happen?” asked me
“I look, you more and more close with.. Who is that?” asked Rasty
“Dean?” said me
“yuph!”
“emm I don’t know, but until now, we are just friend. Okay,” said me
“Okay okay. But if he say ‘ich liebe dich’ (I Love you), what you will to do?” asked Rasty
“Emmm I don’t know, but until now, I can’t forget about Raia Ras..”
“Ohhh I’m sorry. But your life must go on okay, you don’t sad too long long time. Look your future, you must marry, you must be happy, you must be happy to your family okay” said Rasty
“Ya, but I don’t think to search a someone to change Raia, Ras”
“You don’t search someone to change Raia, Raia don’t you forgotten, Save Raia in your heart forever. He is life in your heart”
“But Ras…….”
“Nay, Raia certain not happy if you like this. Raia certain want to you happy.. okay”
“…….”
“Nay.. Open your eyes, open your heart,, and look a world, and you will get happiness.”
“I’m not sure, but I will try okay” said me limp
“Sip! Okay I back you..” said Rasty
“Thank Ras, you are my best friend..”
Click!
Rasty right!, Live must go on, and Raia certain not happy if I like this. I hope I can make Raia happy. But who is can make me falling in love again… and what he is can be make me comfort?
Tok tok tok
I open the door.
“Hai Nay,,,”
“Dean!!!”
“Are you busy? I disturb you?”
“No no no, come in, please sit down, and wait, I make you a drink, what do you want?” said me
“May I request Mineral water” said Dean
“Sure,, wait okay” said me and I bring the drink for Dean..
“Wie geht's? (How are you?)” asked me
“es geht mir gut, danke (fine, thanks)” answered Dean
“Okay,, what happen?” asked me
“No, I just bored, and I don’t know I want to meet you hihihihi”
I just smile..
“Okay By the way… Woher kommen Sie? (Where are you from?) yaa where you life in Germany?” asked me open talking,
“I live in Frankfurt am Main city in Germany,, you know that? It is great city.”
“Oh yeah?” said me excited
“Yes, it is one city favorite city in Germany..” said him
“You must bring me to this city” said me
“Oh of course, I will bring you to this city, you must see the city if night..” said me
“Wah… I so embittered,, “ said me
“I bring photo this city, it’s so amazing.” Said Dean
“Oh ya.. May I look that’s photo?” said me
“Sure, wait, I must take the photos in my car okay” said him
And he bring the photos
“This is Frankfurt am Main city,” said him
“Wah… What your favorite place, Dean? ” asked me
“In Germany, my favorite place in Constance Lake, in Schwarzwald, its so beautiful, you know. This is the photo,” answered him
“Wah… What your favorite place, Dean? ” asked me
“In Germany, my favorite place in Constance Lake, in Schwarzwald, its so beautiful, you know. This is the photo,” answered him
“Wah…….. Dean you must bring me to this place…”
“Of course Nay,,”
“Promise?”
“Yaa. I am promise! By the way, I must go home okay”
“Okay”
“but before that, Nay, May I tell you about some think?”
“Yes Sure, What?”
“I just want to say…………… ich liebe dich Nay (I Love you Nay)”
Oh my god.. What he mean?
“…….”
“Nay…… Nay?? Sorry, I said liked that, but I really Love you, I hope you can open your heart to me… you don’t answer now, but you can answer me if you are sure about your feel,, good night Nay” said Dean
He is going home, and I still stand and do not believe. But now, I become remember Raia…
***
Senin, 24 November 2008
Happiness of Naia (8)
One year later
“Nay… come on we are Lunch….” Say Rasty
“Okay. Wait!” I am preparing to lunch.
“Quickly Nay”
“Ok ok… I’m ready.. hehe lets go!!”
“Where we will have lunch Nay?”
“Whatever you want okay, I follow you.”
“Okay”
And we are go to restaurant in near my office. I sit in chair in near windows the restaurant.
We are order to our lunch and when I wait our order come. We are talk and sometime laugh.
“you know Nay, my boss is very very perfect person. Sometimes I forgot to tell him about meeting with Takamura company, so after I tell him about that, he is very angry. Oh my God. His eyes like out from his face.”
“hahahaha.you are so crazy”
“And you know Nay, Bastian, admin division, can get married next week”
Deg!
My heart like hit stone,, I silent..
“Nay??? Are you fine?”
“Oh yes.. I just.... become remember Raia. I should already married with Raia one year ago…”
“I’m sorry Nay, I not aim to make you remember about that. I am so sorry.”
“No, you no mistake okay.”
“Excuse me” said waitress while bring our order.
“Oh,,, okay”
And a waitress serve in our table..
“Thank you”
“Naia,, can you remember me?” say someone
“You are…………”
“Dean Nay, Dean Antony, you remember?”
“Oh… Mr Dean Antony… Wie geht's? (How Are you?)” say me
“es geht mir gut, danke (fine, thaks)”
“Wie lange sind Sie schon hier? (how Long you has been live in here?)” Ask me.
“Die Woche (one week)”
“Hello!!!! I am not understand dear!!!” say Rasty.
“Oh…okay stop speak Germany language. I not speak Germany language very well okay, by the way, what are you doing here Mr Dean?”
“Sorry, hello Rasty, em… you can call me with only Dean, not Mr Dean. It’s very formal okay.”
“Okay! So what are you doing here……… Dean?”
“Oh I want to meeting with my relation, Oh my god. I am late. Hahaha
This is my name card, calling me okay. Nice too meet you again”
“Nice to meet you too Dean,”
“Auf Wiedersehen! (See you again)” say Dean
“Tschüs! (Bye) “Say me
I saw his name card. And save his phone number in Indonesia and his number in Germany.
“He is so great right?”
“…….”
“Nay,, Hello nay…”
“Ow Sorry, what are you tell me a while ago??”
“Forgotten Nay”
“I’m sorry Ras, I am not concentrated”
“you like him?”
“what?”
“you………like him right?”
“come on Rasty, I cant forget about Raia in my mind… until now”
“Sorry Nay, I don’t aim to…”
“no problem Ras..” said me while smile…
***
Kring my phone ring,
From Dean
Where is he get my number??? Say me in my heart
Then I read he SMS..
From Dean
Hai Nay. What R u doing now? Busy?
I reply……
To Dean
Hai too dean, I’m watching TV now. Whre R u gets my numbr?
From Dean
Hehehe I get your nmber from……
Whoever… u very famous right?
To Dean
Em… ok..ok .. J Can I help u?
From Dean
If you not busy, can I invite u 4 lunch tomrrow?
To Dean
Emmmm I very busy tomorrow, but if u treat me in expensive restaurant, I can.. hahaha just kidding!! J
From Dean
Hehehehe, u r so funny. Ok I’ll fetch u at 01.00 o’clock ok…
To Dean
Okay. C u tomorrow Dean
***
At 01.00 o’clock
I hurried finish my work and run to 1st floor, in Lobby, Dean already wait me…
“Dean I am sorry I come late. Because I must finish my...”
“No problem Nay… Come on”
“ok!”
Then, we are go to the restaurant yaaaa can say Big Restaurant. And I certain, this is expensive restaurant.
“Good Afternoon, this is Menu, what you will order for lunch?” say waitress while smile
“Nay, what you want to lunch now??”
“em… I… order… chicken spaghetti, and orange juice..”
“Ok, I follow her”
“Ok, you want two chicken spaghetti’s and two orange juices, right?”
“Yes!” say Dean
“Okay, waits 15 minutes” say waitress
“Dean, Wie lange bleiben Sie? (How long you can stay in here?)” Say me
“em… about three month.”
“Gefällt es Ihnen hier? (Are you happy in here?)”
“Ja (yes), emm Nay, I hear you has been getting married, right?”
Deg!
I limp…
“Nay?”
“Oh sorry, not yet, my boy friend died when we will getting married 2 days again…” say me sad..
“I am sorry Nay, I don’t know about that, I sad to hear that,, I don’t aim to……”
“No problem Dean!”
I’m see him, I feel he seem like Raia.. He can make me comfort. “Ok Naia, Ok, you only miss Raia, so you think all people like Raia..” say me in my heart, and I think, may be, this is only feel happy because he is kind person. Raia cannot change in my heart! But Now I become remember him.. after I talking with him, Now I know, he live in Indonesia in Dago Bandung, and he live in Germany on Frankfurt am Main city.
Kring…kring
Samuel Calling
“Sorry Dean, I must answer this phone,,” said me and dean just smile.
“Hallo Sam, what happen?”
“Nay, I have a good news for you.”
“what?”
“A killer Raia has been get caught, and now he be in the Jail”
“What!!! Alhamdulillah! “say me excited
“Yes, if you not busy, can you come to here, the policeman office to give a explanation.”
“oh sure, I can, wait me ok.”
“Okay”
Click! And
“Dean, I am sorry, I must go to police office, the killer Raia get caught, and I must give a explanation.”
“Oh yeah, alhamdulillah, I happy for you..”
“Thanks, thanks for all okay, thank for lunch, for you hear my feel, and thank for you has been accept me as a your friend” said me while smile
“You’re welcome...”
***
Deg..deg..deg
More and more I near with police office, I don’t know what I must do when I found with the killer Raia, I am confuse, I am afraid, and I am angry and I am sad,, I don’t know, but Now, I must found with him..
Then, when I arrive, I look Sam, policeman, and… one people, I don’t know who is he. But I look he like athlete, big body, tall and strong,,
“Sam..”
“Yes Nay, he… he is killer Raia,,,,”
I limp, I don’t know what I must do to him, I just cry….
“Why… why you kill my boyfriend.. I don’t know who are you.. why you take my happiness?? WHY!!!!!!”
“em…… I just follow command my boss. He have problem with Raia.. For me, provided that he pay me, and I do it..” said him
“What!!!”
“Nay, calm down Nay, he just payment killer, and we must found his boss. This is important!” said Sam
“Tell me, who is your boss? tell me!” say me angry
He is just smile, his smile like despise me,,, and say
“if you want to know, you must pay me. Hahahahaha”
Plak!!!!!!!!!!!!! I beat him..
“Tell me scoundrel!!!!!!!”
“Ok ok, I will tell you. He is Mr. Ramon Bastian A. he is a industrialist, but he is leader mafia, black organization, and Raia will block his plan, hahahaha”
I limp…who is Mr Ramon Bastian A.? I do not know. Oh Yes I remember Raia was handling the case about the smuggling of illegal drugs. Yes Mr Ramon Bastian A is that leader smuggler, I sure that, and I must bring him to The Jail.
“Nay… come on we are Lunch….” Say Rasty
“Okay. Wait!” I am preparing to lunch.
“Quickly Nay”
“Ok ok… I’m ready.. hehe lets go!!”
“Where we will have lunch Nay?”
“Whatever you want okay, I follow you.”
“Okay”
And we are go to restaurant in near my office. I sit in chair in near windows the restaurant.
We are order to our lunch and when I wait our order come. We are talk and sometime laugh.
“you know Nay, my boss is very very perfect person. Sometimes I forgot to tell him about meeting with Takamura company, so after I tell him about that, he is very angry. Oh my God. His eyes like out from his face.”
“hahahaha.you are so crazy”
“And you know Nay, Bastian, admin division, can get married next week”
Deg!
My heart like hit stone,, I silent..
“Nay??? Are you fine?”
“Oh yes.. I just.... become remember Raia. I should already married with Raia one year ago…”
“I’m sorry Nay, I not aim to make you remember about that. I am so sorry.”
“No, you no mistake okay.”
“Excuse me” said waitress while bring our order.
“Oh,,, okay”
And a waitress serve in our table..
“Thank you”
“Naia,, can you remember me?” say someone
“You are…………”
“Dean Nay, Dean Antony, you remember?”
“Oh… Mr Dean Antony… Wie geht's? (How Are you?)” say me
“es geht mir gut, danke (fine, thaks)”
“Wie lange sind Sie schon hier? (how Long you has been live in here?)” Ask me.
“Die Woche (one week)”
“Hello!!!! I am not understand dear!!!” say Rasty.
“Oh…okay stop speak Germany language. I not speak Germany language very well okay, by the way, what are you doing here Mr Dean?”
“Sorry, hello Rasty, em… you can call me with only Dean, not Mr Dean. It’s very formal okay.”
“Okay! So what are you doing here……… Dean?”
“Oh I want to meeting with my relation, Oh my god. I am late. Hahaha
This is my name card, calling me okay. Nice too meet you again”
“Nice to meet you too Dean,”
“Auf Wiedersehen! (See you again)” say Dean
“Tschüs! (Bye) “Say me
I saw his name card. And save his phone number in Indonesia and his number in Germany.
“He is so great right?”
“…….”
“Nay,, Hello nay…”
“Ow Sorry, what are you tell me a while ago??”
“Forgotten Nay”
“I’m sorry Ras, I am not concentrated”
“you like him?”
“what?”
“you………like him right?”
“come on Rasty, I cant forget about Raia in my mind… until now”
“Sorry Nay, I don’t aim to…”
“no problem Ras..” said me while smile…
***
Kring my phone ring,
From Dean
Where is he get my number??? Say me in my heart
Then I read he SMS..
From Dean
Hai Nay. What R u doing now? Busy?
I reply……
To Dean
Hai too dean, I’m watching TV now. Whre R u gets my numbr?
From Dean
Hehehe I get your nmber from……
Whoever… u very famous right?
To Dean
Em… ok..ok .. J Can I help u?
From Dean
If you not busy, can I invite u 4 lunch tomrrow?
To Dean
Emmmm I very busy tomorrow, but if u treat me in expensive restaurant, I can.. hahaha just kidding!! J
From Dean
Hehehehe, u r so funny. Ok I’ll fetch u at 01.00 o’clock ok…
To Dean
Okay. C u tomorrow Dean
***
At 01.00 o’clock
I hurried finish my work and run to 1st floor, in Lobby, Dean already wait me…
“Dean I am sorry I come late. Because I must finish my...”
“No problem Nay… Come on”
“ok!”
Then, we are go to the restaurant yaaaa can say Big Restaurant. And I certain, this is expensive restaurant.
“Good Afternoon, this is Menu, what you will order for lunch?” say waitress while smile
“Nay, what you want to lunch now??”
“em… I… order… chicken spaghetti, and orange juice..”
“Ok, I follow her”
“Ok, you want two chicken spaghetti’s and two orange juices, right?”
“Yes!” say Dean
“Okay, waits 15 minutes” say waitress
“Dean, Wie lange bleiben Sie? (How long you can stay in here?)” Say me
“em… about three month.”
“Gefällt es Ihnen hier? (Are you happy in here?)”
“Ja (yes), emm Nay, I hear you has been getting married, right?”
Deg!
I limp…
“Nay?”
“Oh sorry, not yet, my boy friend died when we will getting married 2 days again…” say me sad..
“I am sorry Nay, I don’t know about that, I sad to hear that,, I don’t aim to……”
“No problem Dean!”
I’m see him, I feel he seem like Raia.. He can make me comfort. “Ok Naia, Ok, you only miss Raia, so you think all people like Raia..” say me in my heart, and I think, may be, this is only feel happy because he is kind person. Raia cannot change in my heart! But Now I become remember him.. after I talking with him, Now I know, he live in Indonesia in Dago Bandung, and he live in Germany on Frankfurt am Main city.
Kring…kring
Samuel Calling
“Sorry Dean, I must answer this phone,,” said me and dean just smile.
“Hallo Sam, what happen?”
“Nay, I have a good news for you.”
“what?”
“A killer Raia has been get caught, and now he be in the Jail”
“What!!! Alhamdulillah! “say me excited
“Yes, if you not busy, can you come to here, the policeman office to give a explanation.”
“oh sure, I can, wait me ok.”
“Okay”
Click! And
“Dean, I am sorry, I must go to police office, the killer Raia get caught, and I must give a explanation.”
“Oh yeah, alhamdulillah, I happy for you..”
“Thanks, thanks for all okay, thank for lunch, for you hear my feel, and thank for you has been accept me as a your friend” said me while smile
“You’re welcome...”
***
Deg..deg..deg
More and more I near with police office, I don’t know what I must do when I found with the killer Raia, I am confuse, I am afraid, and I am angry and I am sad,, I don’t know, but Now, I must found with him..
Then, when I arrive, I look Sam, policeman, and… one people, I don’t know who is he. But I look he like athlete, big body, tall and strong,,
“Sam..”
“Yes Nay, he… he is killer Raia,,,,”
I limp, I don’t know what I must do to him, I just cry….
“Why… why you kill my boyfriend.. I don’t know who are you.. why you take my happiness?? WHY!!!!!!”
“em…… I just follow command my boss. He have problem with Raia.. For me, provided that he pay me, and I do it..” said him
“What!!!”
“Nay, calm down Nay, he just payment killer, and we must found his boss. This is important!” said Sam
“Tell me, who is your boss? tell me!” say me angry
He is just smile, his smile like despise me,,, and say
“if you want to know, you must pay me. Hahahahaha”
Plak!!!!!!!!!!!!! I beat him..
“Tell me scoundrel!!!!!!!”
“Ok ok, I will tell you. He is Mr. Ramon Bastian A. he is a industrialist, but he is leader mafia, black organization, and Raia will block his plan, hahahaha”
I limp…who is Mr Ramon Bastian A.? I do not know. Oh Yes I remember Raia was handling the case about the smuggling of illegal drugs. Yes Mr Ramon Bastian A is that leader smuggler, I sure that, and I must bring him to The Jail.
Senin, 17 November 2008
Happiness of Naia (7)
“I’m sorry, I can’t do anything…” say a doctor.
“N..n..no…… no……” say me
And I don’t know what happened later, because I fainted…
***
When I open my eyes, I look around, Now I in a room,,, in hospital,,
Oh.. I was dreaming.. but why I listen people was cried??
“Nay..” say someone
“eh Sam..”
“Are you Ok?”
“I,,, headache..” say me while I hold my head..
Oh My god.. This is real!! His mother was cry.. and all people seem sad. Raia… Raia… Raia… Really leave me..
Raia…
“Sam… where is Raia?”
Without many word, Samuel bring me to a room..
Inside in that room, I look Raia.. he is sleeping… calm… peace… and he look clean, his face seem clean… his smile… he is handsome… yes, Raia my boyfriend is a man most handsome in the world…
“Raia… Honey… wake up honey…” say me and begin cry..
“ we will get married 2 day again.. Raia… you are promise me,, you will make me happy.. Raia… come on Raia.. Wake up… please… Don’t leave me.. Raia…” Say me limp and slowly while I hold his face and while cry..
I hold his eyes, his lips, his hair, his hand is strong, his fingers,, and his nose…… he don’t breath…
He don’t speak,, he don’t look me,,
Hiks,,,,,,,,hiks,,,,,,,,,,,,, I can not receive this all . This was too painful for me. Hiks…
Raia!!! Look me Raia… I cannot live without you… I cannot breathe without you… I can’t…… hiks I can’t……… I can’t……… I can’t do anything without you…Raia!!!!! hiks…
Raia…….. Please wake up! And bring me to life…
RAIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I trill his body… but he keeps silent… he keeps sleep…and he will not wake up again forever…
Sam hug me..
“You must be strong Nay” Say Samuel
He is cry, and I cry too in his embrace.
I can’t stand, I can’t life.. I very limp… while doctor close his face with blanket… and I fainted again…
***
When I open my eyes,, all my family & Raia’s family look me sad.. my best friend finally come. Rasty, my best Friend, come and Hug me.. she say “ I really sad Nay, I follow sad for him.. but you must be strong. Life must go on. Do not like this. You seem very limp. Raia don’t like look you like this..” she say while cry..
My family and my friends are hug me one by one.. and say
“You must be strong Nay”
They don’t know my feel, they don’t know how broke my heart..
Why God… Why You take Raia?? Why You take my boyfriend… why the people without worrying has been kill my Raia.. why??? Who has been kill Raia? I will not give sorry… he really very bad person..
The plan, Raia will grave in the general funeral in near his home..
In Raia funeral.. I can’t stand. I only sit in chair.. all people seem me sad. All people wear black clothes. All people follow sad.. yes Raia are kind person.. he is very nice.. Rain descended, drizzle, apparently nature then was sad on the Raia trip..
I look all around is dark… many people send flower as grieve symbol.. the flower should fill my wedding building as happy symbol, not like Now.. in Raia burial as grieve symbol…
***
I look resting place Raia.. and I hold gravestone. In there written name Raia.. ‘RAIA AZIZ’..
I cry in front of gravestone.. Raia.. you are dead with my love, with my heart, and with my Happiness…
***
When I sit in a place,, someone call me…
“Nay…honey…”
“Raia?” I happy and hug him.
“Nay… I’m sorry… I must leave you Now…”
“Why Raia?? You don’t go anywhere without me. You are promise me if you can make me happy, right?”
“Nay…look” Raia stop his say, and sit in a chair. continue say
“You must be strong ok, I will always take care of you forever, in there, and I always will be in this.,” say Raia while his hands hold to the side of the chest.
“Nay.. You must be happy without me okay… you don’t afraid you will alone.. Because I always with you in your heart” say Raia while smile and look me softly..
I look his face. His face is very clean, very peace and happy..
Raia hug me… and slowly lost… ‘Raia!!’ say me
Raia smile and lose……
I wake up… Raia enter my dreaming… Raia know me very sad because he leaved.
I don’t know, can I stand without Raia??
Can I life without Raia??
I don’t know…
Now, I could not sleep again. I took mp3 and listened to the song. Raia very like this song, and Raia sing the song for me when I birthday 2 years ago.. the song from N’sync- This I promise you.
When the visions around you
Bring tears to your eyes
And all that surrounds you
Are secrets and lies
I'll be your strength
I'll give you hope
Keeping your faith when it's gone
The one you should call
When standing here all alone
CHORUS 1
And I will take you in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
Until the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you
I've loved you forever
In lifetimes before
And I promise you never
Will you hurt anymore
I give you my word
I give you my heart
This is a battle we've won
And with this vow
Forever has now begun
Just close your eyes each loving day
And know this feeling won't go away
Until the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you
Over and over I thought
When I hear you call
Without you in my life baby
I just wouldn't be living at all
CHORUS CHORUS 2
Every word I say is true
This I promise you
Ooh I promise you
To be continue…
“N..n..no…… no……” say me
And I don’t know what happened later, because I fainted…
***
When I open my eyes, I look around, Now I in a room,,, in hospital,,
Oh.. I was dreaming.. but why I listen people was cried??
“Nay..” say someone
“eh Sam..”
“Are you Ok?”
“I,,, headache..” say me while I hold my head..
Oh My god.. This is real!! His mother was cry.. and all people seem sad. Raia… Raia… Raia… Really leave me..
Raia…
“Sam… where is Raia?”
Without many word, Samuel bring me to a room..
Inside in that room, I look Raia.. he is sleeping… calm… peace… and he look clean, his face seem clean… his smile… he is handsome… yes, Raia my boyfriend is a man most handsome in the world…
“Raia… Honey… wake up honey…” say me and begin cry..
“ we will get married 2 day again.. Raia… you are promise me,, you will make me happy.. Raia… come on Raia.. Wake up… please… Don’t leave me.. Raia…” Say me limp and slowly while I hold his face and while cry..
I hold his eyes, his lips, his hair, his hand is strong, his fingers,, and his nose…… he don’t breath…
He don’t speak,, he don’t look me,,
Hiks,,,,,,,,hiks,,,,,,,,,,,,, I can not receive this all . This was too painful for me. Hiks…
Raia!!! Look me Raia… I cannot live without you… I cannot breathe without you… I can’t…… hiks I can’t……… I can’t……… I can’t do anything without you…Raia!!!!! hiks…
Raia…….. Please wake up! And bring me to life…
RAIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I trill his body… but he keeps silent… he keeps sleep…and he will not wake up again forever…
Sam hug me..
“You must be strong Nay” Say Samuel
He is cry, and I cry too in his embrace.
I can’t stand, I can’t life.. I very limp… while doctor close his face with blanket… and I fainted again…
***
When I open my eyes,, all my family & Raia’s family look me sad.. my best friend finally come. Rasty, my best Friend, come and Hug me.. she say “ I really sad Nay, I follow sad for him.. but you must be strong. Life must go on. Do not like this. You seem very limp. Raia don’t like look you like this..” she say while cry..
My family and my friends are hug me one by one.. and say
“You must be strong Nay”
They don’t know my feel, they don’t know how broke my heart..
Why God… Why You take Raia?? Why You take my boyfriend… why the people without worrying has been kill my Raia.. why??? Who has been kill Raia? I will not give sorry… he really very bad person..
The plan, Raia will grave in the general funeral in near his home..
In Raia funeral.. I can’t stand. I only sit in chair.. all people seem me sad. All people wear black clothes. All people follow sad.. yes Raia are kind person.. he is very nice.. Rain descended, drizzle, apparently nature then was sad on the Raia trip..
I look all around is dark… many people send flower as grieve symbol.. the flower should fill my wedding building as happy symbol, not like Now.. in Raia burial as grieve symbol…
***
I look resting place Raia.. and I hold gravestone. In there written name Raia.. ‘RAIA AZIZ’..
I cry in front of gravestone.. Raia.. you are dead with my love, with my heart, and with my Happiness…
***
When I sit in a place,, someone call me…
“Nay…honey…”
“Raia?” I happy and hug him.
“Nay… I’m sorry… I must leave you Now…”
“Why Raia?? You don’t go anywhere without me. You are promise me if you can make me happy, right?”
“Nay…look” Raia stop his say, and sit in a chair. continue say
“You must be strong ok, I will always take care of you forever, in there, and I always will be in this.,” say Raia while his hands hold to the side of the chest.
“Nay.. You must be happy without me okay… you don’t afraid you will alone.. Because I always with you in your heart” say Raia while smile and look me softly..
I look his face. His face is very clean, very peace and happy..
Raia hug me… and slowly lost… ‘Raia!!’ say me
Raia smile and lose……
I wake up… Raia enter my dreaming… Raia know me very sad because he leaved.
I don’t know, can I stand without Raia??
Can I life without Raia??
I don’t know…
Now, I could not sleep again. I took mp3 and listened to the song. Raia very like this song, and Raia sing the song for me when I birthday 2 years ago.. the song from N’sync- This I promise you.
When the visions around you
Bring tears to your eyes
And all that surrounds you
Are secrets and lies
I'll be your strength
I'll give you hope
Keeping your faith when it's gone
The one you should call
When standing here all alone
CHORUS 1
And I will take you in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
Until the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you
I've loved you forever
In lifetimes before
And I promise you never
Will you hurt anymore
I give you my word
I give you my heart
This is a battle we've won
And with this vow
Forever has now begun
Just close your eyes each loving day
And know this feeling won't go away
Until the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you
Over and over I thought
When I hear you call
Without you in my life baby
I just wouldn't be living at all
CHORUS CHORUS 2
Every word I say is true
This I promise you
Ooh I promise you
To be continue…
Senin, 10 November 2008
hapiness of Naia (6)
2 day again, I will get married with Raia.. I feel very happy…
Oh Allah, I really happy now.. You make my dream come true… thanks God.. Alhamdulillah..
Its my pray, every day, every hour, every minutes, and every second..
Now I don’t find with Raia, uuuuh I sad… T.T hiks hiks,,, I sad…
Yeah I understand, we aren’t find because, old parent say so that make me miss him, and he miss me… hehehehehehe ^_^
Kring kring..
My phone ring..
Oh Raia call me..
“Hallo honey” say me
“Hay Nay, my wife.. hehehehe”
I just smile and shy..
“oh ya… I will go to restaurant to meet my client. It very urgent honey..” say Raia
“You still the work!! Come on Raia, 2 day again we will get married.. you don’t go to this okay. “ say me panic.
“ enjoy Nay, Will not have anything, believed was me!” say Raia enjoy
I don’t know, I afraid, I have bad feeling,, but I can’t do everything.
I just silent.
“…..”
“all of them will be okay honey, this is just meeting. Believe me okay?”
“ I just afraid honey. I afraid lose you!” say me
“ No, I will back, and married with you okay.. I Love you so much” say Raia
“ Okay, be careful okay and call me if you work already finish yuph!”
“ Okay..”
“ I Love you…” say me
“ I love you too” say Raia while close his phone
*****
3 hour after that he not call me..
I just wait he call me…
4 hour….
I call him but not answer..
5 hour…. I still wait him call me.
I worried.. I very worry.. please honey.. answer me..
Kring… kring..
Raia!!!
“ hai Ray, why my phone not your answer!!” say me angry
“ sory Nay, this meeting very important you know.. listen, I fine honey. All of them is okay”
“I was relieved.. . I was happy you it's alright..”
“. Okay then I said me would not anything.. ya sudah I want go to home okay and see you 2 days again honey… Love you…”
“ I love you too…” say me…
Alhamdulillah he is fine.
*****
Kring…kring…
My phone ring…
‘home Raia’
Oh Raia has been arrive on his home.. say me in my heart
“ halo Raia!!”
“ halo Naia?” say someone in there
“halo. Who is this?”
“ I.. I’m Samuel”
“ Oh Sam, what happen Sam? Can I help you?” say me
Samuel is Raia’s brother
“ I hope you calm okay”
“ what happen?”
“Raia… Raia….”
“ what happen with Raia, Sam?”
“Now,Raia in Hospital Nay,,” say Samuel careful
“ What!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why Sam?” say me panic and cry
“He was shot was the same the pistol by someone who were not known and bullets him is affected by his chest, in the parking lot in the restaurant that he visited earlier, now he was critical Naia.
“are you kidding Sam? Come on Sam, Raia just telephoned me several previous minutes. I will not find it easy to be told lies by you
“ No Nay,, it really! Raia need you..”
Sam close the phone. I just silent. I confuse what must I to do now..
Ya Allah I hope he be good.
I at once went to the Hospital with my sister Sandra, and while I arrive in this hospital, I look his parent and Samuel,
“Nay..” say Raia’s mother
“Mom.. hiks hiks….” I cry while hug Raia’s mother..
“ I Afraid mom…”
“ No Nay, Raia certain fine okay..”
Evidently true, Raia was shot by someone that we did not know, there was no witness that saw, there was no voice and did not have the scream. So, whoever did like this to Raia.
“Ya Allah, our 2 days more will marry. Don't You took all this. please.” Pray me in my heart while I saw Raia in operation space.
“Please Raia,struggled for me, for your family, for our marriage, for our dreams, for your promise to always with me, please raia. should not leave me! Hiks………”
Raia still in operation space. for a long time he was inside and finally the doctor went out from inside operation space.
“How my son condition the doctor?” say Raia’s Father
“Sorry,,,,,” the doctor stop his say and continue say
“ we have tried maximal, but the bullets about the heart of your son. we could not rescue the life of your son Sir, sorry, we condolences”
“NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” scream me while cry..
And Suddenly all of them were seen dark ………
To be continue……….
Oh Allah, I really happy now.. You make my dream come true… thanks God.. Alhamdulillah..
Its my pray, every day, every hour, every minutes, and every second..
Now I don’t find with Raia, uuuuh I sad… T.T hiks hiks,,, I sad…
Yeah I understand, we aren’t find because, old parent say so that make me miss him, and he miss me… hehehehehehe ^_^
Kring kring..
My phone ring..
Oh Raia call me..
“Hallo honey” say me
“Hay Nay, my wife.. hehehehe”
I just smile and shy..
“oh ya… I will go to restaurant to meet my client. It very urgent honey..” say Raia
“You still the work!! Come on Raia, 2 day again we will get married.. you don’t go to this okay. “ say me panic.
“ enjoy Nay, Will not have anything, believed was me!” say Raia enjoy
I don’t know, I afraid, I have bad feeling,, but I can’t do everything.
I just silent.
“…..”
“all of them will be okay honey, this is just meeting. Believe me okay?”
“ I just afraid honey. I afraid lose you!” say me
“ No, I will back, and married with you okay.. I Love you so much” say Raia
“ Okay, be careful okay and call me if you work already finish yuph!”
“ Okay..”
“ I Love you…” say me
“ I love you too” say Raia while close his phone
*****
3 hour after that he not call me..
I just wait he call me…
4 hour….
I call him but not answer..
5 hour…. I still wait him call me.
I worried.. I very worry.. please honey.. answer me..
Kring… kring..
Raia!!!
“ hai Ray, why my phone not your answer!!” say me angry
“ sory Nay, this meeting very important you know.. listen, I fine honey. All of them is okay”
“I was relieved.. . I was happy you it's alright..”
“. Okay then I said me would not anything.. ya sudah I want go to home okay and see you 2 days again honey… Love you…”
“ I love you too…” say me…
Alhamdulillah he is fine.
*****
Kring…kring…
My phone ring…
‘home Raia’
Oh Raia has been arrive on his home.. say me in my heart
“ halo Raia!!”
“ halo Naia?” say someone in there
“halo. Who is this?”
“ I.. I’m Samuel”
“ Oh Sam, what happen Sam? Can I help you?” say me
Samuel is Raia’s brother
“ I hope you calm okay”
“ what happen?”
“Raia… Raia….”
“ what happen with Raia, Sam?”
“Now,Raia in Hospital Nay,,” say Samuel careful
“ What!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why Sam?” say me panic and cry
“He was shot was the same the pistol by someone who were not known and bullets him is affected by his chest, in the parking lot in the restaurant that he visited earlier, now he was critical Naia.
“are you kidding Sam? Come on Sam, Raia just telephoned me several previous minutes. I will not find it easy to be told lies by you
“ No Nay,, it really! Raia need you..”
Sam close the phone. I just silent. I confuse what must I to do now..
Ya Allah I hope he be good.
I at once went to the Hospital with my sister Sandra, and while I arrive in this hospital, I look his parent and Samuel,
“Nay..” say Raia’s mother
“Mom.. hiks hiks….” I cry while hug Raia’s mother..
“ I Afraid mom…”
“ No Nay, Raia certain fine okay..”
Evidently true, Raia was shot by someone that we did not know, there was no witness that saw, there was no voice and did not have the scream. So, whoever did like this to Raia.
“Ya Allah, our 2 days more will marry. Don't You took all this. please.” Pray me in my heart while I saw Raia in operation space.
“Please Raia,struggled for me, for your family, for our marriage, for our dreams, for your promise to always with me, please raia. should not leave me! Hiks………”
Raia still in operation space. for a long time he was inside and finally the doctor went out from inside operation space.
“How my son condition the doctor?” say Raia’s Father
“Sorry,,,,,” the doctor stop his say and continue say
“ we have tried maximal, but the bullets about the heart of your son. we could not rescue the life of your son Sir, sorry, we condolences”
“NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” scream me while cry..
And Suddenly all of them were seen dark ………
To be continue……….
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